One day, me and my dad was on a bus and he was lecturing me about how naughty I am.
Me: So who do I blame then?
Dad: What do you mean?
Me: Like.. You and mum brought me to this world, so it must have been one of your genes that made me this bad right?
Dad: Dont say it like that son, if you meant like we created you so, doesn't that mean that we too deserve the right to abandon you as and when we like?
Me:...
Yup, my dad owns.
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Friday, September 3, 2010
Satisfaction~ Satisfaction~ Satisfaction~
Exams are nearing once again and here I am, blogging by the request of Miss To Yi Rui, not bad ah didnt know there were actually readers here hahaha!
Been studying who day today with Adam, Hui Min, Hou Man, and Yu Ling at the LT, again two couples and I'm alone, its funny how I'm always the lonely single boy whenever I hang out with em, whether I'm attached or not :/
Life's been good to me recently, really, I have awesome friends/bros/sisters, awesome parents, and of course an awesome girl by my side! :D Now all that's left for me is to really buck up my studies and my life would be really perfect. With only the stupid WAD sub paper standing in way. Fuck WAD!
I realised a lot of things throughout this period though, like how fucked-up the world actually is. I wonder is life like this as well in the olden days, I'm guessing it is, it's just hard to imagine. I guess this is all part of growing up, you learn things, good and bad (usually more bad but still..)
Damn I need a drinking session soon.
Been studying who day today with Adam, Hui Min, Hou Man, and Yu Ling at the LT, again two couples and I'm alone, its funny how I'm always the lonely single boy whenever I hang out with em, whether I'm attached or not :/
Life's been good to me recently, really, I have awesome friends/bros/sisters, awesome parents, and of course an awesome girl by my side! :D Now all that's left for me is to really buck up my studies and my life would be really perfect. With only the stupid WAD sub paper standing in way. Fuck WAD!
I realised a lot of things throughout this period though, like how fucked-up the world actually is. I wonder is life like this as well in the olden days, I'm guessing it is, it's just hard to imagine. I guess this is all part of growing up, you learn things, good and bad (usually more bad but still..)
Damn I need a drinking session soon.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Fragments of my 3 year old self
Wow, after a night of drinking I guess it really made me think alot, I realised I was seriously pure and nice last time!
I still remember the times where my dad or mum would bring me to the church just across my house where it was still a childcare then.
I remember the fear of letting go of my parents hands for the first time.
The uncertaintity, what horrors lie inside that church and how would I cope without my parents. God knows what my parents did to make me let go of their hands at that time to make me let go man. It probably ended with me wailing like no one's business I guess? Wow, guess it must've pained them to see their child cry like some wildebeast when they let go of those small hands to go to work.
I still remember after awhile, my parents would still send me to the childcare everyday. (Being not older than 3 years old that time, they had to.) I recall everyday was a repitition, of me crying whenever I cant see my parents. I still remember me bugging my dad to stay in the church and not leave me while I go and have my lessons.(tracing from A-Z, and god my handwriting was seriously ugly back then too.)
I remember my dad always saying "Alright I'll stay." while I would feel so relieved in my heart and run into the church to play with my friends, after awhile when I turned back, my father would always go missing. Causing me to cry like a maniac once more. Too bad I never caught him in the act before, imagine turning back and seeing your father scuttle away like some cartoon character. Funny thing is, I've never blamed him for "abandoning" me then. I guess being a child has it's good points, whatever sadness or anger you harbour will instantly be gone once you're done and you would not even remember an ounce of it. I would still hold my daddy's hand and just walk home just like nothing ever happened.
I still recall that everytime I cried till it was unbearable for me anymore at the church, this uncle would always bring me to the second floor where there were beautiful colored glass windows, hoping it would make me feel better when I look at them. The funny thing is, being colourful as they are, the windows were also perfect for rebounding sound. Which amplified my crying even louder.(I found it kind of fun back then and would cry even louder just to hear how loud my voice sounds when it comes back)
I even remember the first girl I "loved". It's funny but it was some kind of chinese mtv girl star my parents bought for me in a casette, what were they thinking man? To a young infant at that time who needed help to even pee in the toilet, much less having contact with girls back then, that girl was like the most beautiful girl on earth, with an angelic face and a voice to match.(I cant even remember how she looks like now.) I remember telling my parents that I am going to marry her when I am older, when they asked me how am I going to do it when she is older than me and she exists in a casette only. I replied by saying "I will show this casette to everyone and ask who knows her." Wow, a ridiculous plan but somehow I think I was kinda smart back then aint I?
I remember watching ultraman in front of this small tv, I loved the beeping diamond on his chest as it reminded me of myself at that time cos I had asthma as well. Cant play or run for too long or I'd suffer. Same goes for ultraman. If he fought for too long, his diamond would start beeping and that's when he would use his super-strong instant kill X-beam. My dad even bought me a ultraman encyclopedia back then! (But damn it was in chinese.)
I remember I didnt really like the girls in my class back then somehow as they looked kinda un-fun to hang out with, my image was them was really the stereotypical kind I see in the tv back then, playing with barbie dolls or smelling flowers in the grass. (Although there weren't really much flowers in Singapore.)
When I was a 3 year old, I cried when things don't go my way. (I seldom cry okay!), I forgive and forget really quick, I think of crazy plans to get the girl I like, I do the things I like whenever I want (watching ultraman), I disliked girls, I had a weak body that doesnt even allow me to eat sweets, chocolates, or ice cream.
Now? I dont cry anymore, I cant forgive and forget as quickly as I could last time, I dont do crazy stuff for the one I like anymore, I dont even know what is the favourite thing to do anymore and I find ultraman a joke, I love girls, and I am in good health although I am ruining it.
Imagine how hard my 3 year old self would cry if he saw the state I am in now.
I still remember the times where my dad or mum would bring me to the church just across my house where it was still a childcare then.
I remember the fear of letting go of my parents hands for the first time.
The uncertaintity, what horrors lie inside that church and how would I cope without my parents. God knows what my parents did to make me let go of their hands at that time to make me let go man. It probably ended with me wailing like no one's business I guess? Wow, guess it must've pained them to see their child cry like some wildebeast when they let go of those small hands to go to work.
I still remember after awhile, my parents would still send me to the childcare everyday. (Being not older than 3 years old that time, they had to.) I recall everyday was a repitition, of me crying whenever I cant see my parents. I still remember me bugging my dad to stay in the church and not leave me while I go and have my lessons.(tracing from A-Z, and god my handwriting was seriously ugly back then too.)
I remember my dad always saying "Alright I'll stay." while I would feel so relieved in my heart and run into the church to play with my friends, after awhile when I turned back, my father would always go missing. Causing me to cry like a maniac once more. Too bad I never caught him in the act before, imagine turning back and seeing your father scuttle away like some cartoon character. Funny thing is, I've never blamed him for "abandoning" me then. I guess being a child has it's good points, whatever sadness or anger you harbour will instantly be gone once you're done and you would not even remember an ounce of it. I would still hold my daddy's hand and just walk home just like nothing ever happened.
I still recall that everytime I cried till it was unbearable for me anymore at the church, this uncle would always bring me to the second floor where there were beautiful colored glass windows, hoping it would make me feel better when I look at them. The funny thing is, being colourful as they are, the windows were also perfect for rebounding sound. Which amplified my crying even louder.(I found it kind of fun back then and would cry even louder just to hear how loud my voice sounds when it comes back)
I even remember the first girl I "loved". It's funny but it was some kind of chinese mtv girl star my parents bought for me in a casette, what were they thinking man? To a young infant at that time who needed help to even pee in the toilet, much less having contact with girls back then, that girl was like the most beautiful girl on earth, with an angelic face and a voice to match.(I cant even remember how she looks like now.) I remember telling my parents that I am going to marry her when I am older, when they asked me how am I going to do it when she is older than me and she exists in a casette only. I replied by saying "I will show this casette to everyone and ask who knows her." Wow, a ridiculous plan but somehow I think I was kinda smart back then aint I?
I remember watching ultraman in front of this small tv, I loved the beeping diamond on his chest as it reminded me of myself at that time cos I had asthma as well. Cant play or run for too long or I'd suffer. Same goes for ultraman. If he fought for too long, his diamond would start beeping and that's when he would use his super-strong instant kill X-beam. My dad even bought me a ultraman encyclopedia back then! (But damn it was in chinese.)
I remember I didnt really like the girls in my class back then somehow as they looked kinda un-fun to hang out with, my image was them was really the stereotypical kind I see in the tv back then, playing with barbie dolls or smelling flowers in the grass. (Although there weren't really much flowers in Singapore.)
When I was a 3 year old, I cried when things don't go my way. (I seldom cry okay!), I forgive and forget really quick, I think of crazy plans to get the girl I like, I do the things I like whenever I want (watching ultraman), I disliked girls, I had a weak body that doesnt even allow me to eat sweets, chocolates, or ice cream.
Now? I dont cry anymore, I cant forgive and forget as quickly as I could last time, I dont do crazy stuff for the one I like anymore, I dont even know what is the favourite thing to do anymore and I find ultraman a joke, I love girls, and I am in good health although I am ruining it.
Imagine how hard my 3 year old self would cry if he saw the state I am in now.
Adp from the future here, reading this years after i typed this im actually pretty pleasantly surprised! I guess its good to keep a blog to keep track of your musings at times huh? (ADP 25/12/17)
Friday, June 18, 2010
To thank all those people I've met since I've stepped into poly
Ok the picture above has nothing to do with the post at all. :/
Alot has happened in this 1.5 years since I've stepped into poly, I've met assholes, crazy fuckers, hot chicks, power-hungry diplomats, backstabbing homos, jealous pricks, cool kids, generous fatties..
But most of all, I've met YOU! YOU are the person I would like to thank in this post. For you have made a change in my life and if you're in the list below, you're probably held in rather high regard. ;)
Are you nervous? Are you nervous yet if your name's on this list? Aw fuck you probably aint cos no one reads this blog anyway.
First on the hall of fame is...
1) POH HOUMAN
You have a fucked up chinese name clown. But aside from that you're a really frickin cool person, whether you know it or not, you're the person I respect the most throughout the whole school, and you didnt even do much to attain this 'level' you just happen to 'be yourself' and that's cool enough for me! Sharing the things you have and never asking for anything in return, lending me your ear when I need you and always being there for me, if I was a warrior, you'd be my frickin weapon cos you're a motherfucking cool dude that I know I can depend on whenever and whereever. It doesnt matter if you're able to help me out or not, your generosity shows all. Thank you for always helping me out when I need you and sharing man. Brother, you rock! If only girls would see through that ahbeng exterior of yours you'd be a frickin pimp daddy! Good luck growing your fringe clown!
2) ADAM YEOW KAI JIE
Well I really didnt know you were such a cool dude at the start, you didnt really catch my eye when I first met you at TBC, I still remember at that time I just wanted to hang out and screw around blah blah blah, until when you joked with me at some game during the camp and slowly slowly, bam! you're a cool mofo man! You got the funniest jokes and you're one of the most steady person I have met in IIT, no wait make that TP since I dont know much people there anyway. Good luck with that girl man! She feels you're too good for her and I think so too, but ah fuck that, you're a cool guy and you deserve every inch of her. ;)
3) SEAN WONG KENG MUN
This chubby ol chum of mine. Well what can I say, you're the first few person I met at school.(Make that day one.) And yeah, I never expected to become bros with you man! Your first impression to me was that you're a dangerous dude who would probably bully people around the school and like walk about sapalak and I'd probably not like that. But hey, thinking back now you're quite the cool guy too! We've been through quite a bit thinking back now, giving each other advice and you giving me those "tips", they'll come in handy soon man! Last long with carrot! All those effort aren't wasted I tell ya! Fucking get married or i'll kick yo ass!
4) ZULKARNAIN SADALI
LOL I had to go back to facebook to make sure that I got your name correct, sorry ah bang, always call you zul for short mah. I owe you alot from the beginning man, thinking back, I kinda already know you when I was in secondary school, cept that I dont know who you are, and my bad for making fun of you that time cos well.. You were really kinda entertaining. Thank you for always being there for me when I need you depite having to much shit to handle for youself. It sucks being you and I always feel that I dont do enough to make it up to you at times.. I'm sorry bro, I wish i was more competent, thank you for not looking down on me and always guiding me when I need you, I wish I had a real brother like you sometimes, really happy to have you in my life.
Okay that's enough of my brothers in IIT school. Now to move on to the ladies, sad to say I have only one lady I would call my "sister" here, but still, there's still another one here in this is list which is worth mentioning!
1) TO YI RUI! <3 br="">EH SIS I PUT A HEART FOR YOU HERE LEH! SPECIAL SPECIAL! :D
Haha, this crazy girl is another one of those which I'd never expect to be so close to when I first stepped into TP. You looked like those basketball girls or sth, turns out you're awesome at table tennis instead huh! Well at least I'm not totally wrong. You're a really cool kid you know? :) Take good care of yourself la! Thin like a bamboo liao still always wanna lose weight, thank you for always showing concern to me! And being there for me even at my most un-man times! You're a frickin sweet girl and you WILL DEFINATELY end up with someone equally sweet and caring with you someday! Just dont forget this bro ah! When I need a shoulder you dont go tian mi mi with your future boyf and forget me hor! YOU ROCK! :D
2) TIN SHI LI
HAHAHAHAHA I'm sure people who know me well probably will expect her name in this list, well this is a special species seriously, she made me realise to many things, what a girl needs and how I should start acting like. Met her around the same time as Adam, you look like a malay you bimbo triangle! :D I'm happy that I always manage to make you laugh at least once when I meet you or on the phone, dont have one time you never meet me you never laugh one right? :) Or maybe its cos you're the kind that laughs easily ah.. :/ You're my motivation to study hard you know? You are excellent in planning you time. TEACH ME LEH!
<3 br="">
ADP from the future here, while poly is pretty interesting and you're thankful that you've meet a ton of awesome people, there are also people that you realize were fake from the start, and that you never mattered to them in the first place. But that's how the world is right? Because the truth is they kinda never mattered to you either. (ADP 18/12/17)
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
What's going on?
Skipped school today cos I overslept, met Andy at the polyclinic and he looked like crap. Came home after getting my mc and starting using my com..
Its really times like this that reminds me of myself in the past, when I was in the early sec 3s and I would always go to the polyclinic to get an mc and come back to play GUNZ online. Ahh.. those loser, no-friends days.. Although many things have changed after three years ever since I befriended Nicol, I start to realise that my study attitude has never changed throughout the years.. slack.
I have managed to made it this far by not putting in any effort, but ever since I stepped into poly, I start to realise that my working attitude needs to be changed, the future is at stake now mannnn!!
Currently studying for my french test tomorrow and now. Just finished my IN3D research and now i'm left with the sketch i'm goin to leave up to james and audrey later to help me finish it! Hopefully..
Life's great when you know you have friends who will help you out when you need them to! ;)
Its really times like this that reminds me of myself in the past, when I was in the early sec 3s and I would always go to the polyclinic to get an mc and come back to play GUNZ online. Ahh.. those loser, no-friends days.. Although many things have changed after three years ever since I befriended Nicol, I start to realise that my study attitude has never changed throughout the years.. slack.
I have managed to made it this far by not putting in any effort, but ever since I stepped into poly, I start to realise that my working attitude needs to be changed, the future is at stake now mannnn!!
Currently studying for my french test tomorrow and now. Just finished my IN3D research and now i'm left with the sketch i'm goin to leave up to james and audrey later to help me finish it! Hopefully..
Life's great when you know you have friends who will help you out when you need them to! ;)
Dun from the future here (6/9/17), i don't even recall delegating my school tasks to my secondary school friends back when i was in poly lolol! But i guess everything turned out fine? In the end, i never realy gave my 100% at school at all. It was just mostly impulsive motivation (or something like that haha cant find a more apt description).
Sunday, May 23, 2010
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
OMGAWD THE JOURNALS FOR IN3D IS SO FRICKIN HARD I'M GOING TO DIE!
Shit man I dont know anything about any of the questions asked there, and thats not all, my HCI e-learning... oh gawd oh gawd.... -.-
Shit man I dont know anything about any of the questions asked there, and thats not all, my HCI e-learning... oh gawd oh gawd.... -.-
DP from the future here (6/9/17), its been years since I've graduated from my polytechnic days and i can't recall a single shit about the subjects that I've learnt. Guess im not very good at retaining information huh? Nonetheless im glad that school is over and oddly enough, im actually enjoying my working life pretty well!
Monday, May 3, 2010
I am sibei sian
This is the first frickin time i'm blogging in school's concourse. Read the title for the reason ah. Currently sending CounterStrike into my thumbdrive to send to Arif but its taking ages while hes busy with his MAYA stuff.. Year 2.1 isnt going to be a bed of roses man looking at the assignments due soon.. Ohwells! Just gotta buck up ah, been slacking all my life maybe this time round I'll change?
I miss playing Pokemon with my handphone.. :'(
I miss playing Pokemon with my handphone.. :'(
Adp from the future here! In the end year 2.1 was a bed of roses hahaha. I'm in uni now! And I'm still hoping to buck up a little this time as it's the final bound. Wish me luck! (ADP 2/8/16)
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)