Today is the first day of my company's last mission, having not been in the forest for at least a year, everything feels so new and fresh to me. So this is what a combatant goes through regularly huh. If there's anything army has taught me, it has taught me to be braver, to not blindly fear authority and to have the guts to do what's necessary to attain what you have to. So I guess they're right huh! You do mature when you go through NS, i just probably chose a different path from the rest. While I still abhor the idea of conscription, I'm thankful nonetheless.
Insomnia still sucks really bad though, too bad kimsiang is asleep and Eugene isn't around as well to keep my company through the night when the view is exceptionally beautiful tonight. I guess thats how our ancestors used to live huh! Away from all this concrete jungle and all. I wonder what was going through their head back in those days..
Well, at least I know this is indeed the final milestone that I have to undergo before I step into the adult world. God, there's still so much stuff I have to work on.. What happened to all those dreams I used to have? They seem so far away now.. Maybe I'm just too lazy for my own good after all?
Enjoying every moment for now, it's sort of therapeutic even. Let's hope I can come out of this alive and wiser hahaha.
