Today, or yesterday since its already past 12am was pretty uneventful. I realized thst I've made a few careless mistakes on my test and that I am once again reminded of how it's like to feel unwelcomed. It's funny how I'm able to pick out this kinda small actions since I've done it to others as well. Well, I actually think it's kind of a good thing. This kind of frustrations are actually motivating me to seriously buck up and swing even harder than I've done before. I will work hard not to feel welcomed, but to overacheive those who have shut their doors to me in the past. Who knows? If I'm lucky I might be able to do the same back to them. It might be an unhealthy motivation, but at least its something.
Just watched a youtube video called "path of vengeance", pretty cool. It's about how much hatred drives a person to go beyond what normal people would do, although I guess motivations like this would normally end in a "bad" way huh. Well, I'd rather get something done than to sit on my ass all day and wait to be picked on.
People preach about kindness and forgiveness and doing good all the time, but how many of them actually walk the talk? In the end, only the strong gets to speak and act. It has always been this way since the beginning of time. I will become strong. Only then do I have the right to decide what is right and wrong in this morally grey world. Talking is seriously overrated.
And yet I typed so much in this post. Whatever.
This is probably what I'm going to be like if I don't catch any sleep soon. But then again, I'm really not that sleepy :/
