Today feels like a fast day

And it'll probably pass by even faster once im done with my lunch! Waiting for Lam right now to be done with his shit so we can go for some cheap subway. :)

Meeting the peeps to drink tonight too! I was so excited for it days ago but now i feel nothing oddly haha.

Okay! In the midst of posting this Lam is finally ready to lunch! Can't wait to see my girlfriend later on mwahaha!

Hope next year's gvf will be at genting too!!

Idiocracy is like a diesease

Thank god its going to off itself by the end of this week. Talking to this creature is cancerous af.

Turns out green tea might be the remedy for helping me to quit smoking. But honestly maybr i should stop blogging so often, technology nowadays is pretty scary in the sense that like I heard it can even predict your next moves on a daily basis should you feed it enough information. Wow.

Meeting some of these peeps later to celebrate Liangyi's birthdat!

Kinda missing good vibes festival

Cant believe i gotta wait about a year for the next good vibes festival, the withdrawals are real man. :(

I wish i could fast forward through time and quickly get to my next overseas trip hahaha. I kinda understand now why do adults like traveling so much.

Anyway, 7 more hours till i knock off today lo!

My friend is 90% confirmed trans (i think?)

I guess its pretty sad when you feel that your entire country is against your "kind", calling it cancer island and all. It sucks when you're unable to be who you want to be without fear of people not "accepting you for who you are".

The truth is, people who wont accept you for who you are exists everywhere. You can be the best person in the world and humans will still find a way to express their disdain for you. So the real question shouldn't be "Where can i go to find acceptance?" but rather "Why should i give a fuck whether you accept me or not?".

My OC back in NS used to encourage us to adopt a "blame yourself first" attitude. Although i wasn't his favourite trooper, i strongly concur with this particular "principle". The "blame yourself" attitude basically asks every individual to really reflect on why did this shit happen and what can they as an individual do to make sure the same problem does not arise again. Since truly, at the end of the day, the only thing you can truly be in control of is your own actions & thoughts. For example, if the people around me do not approve of my sexuality, instead of calling them sexists and kicking up a fuss blaming everyone for not accepting you, "blame" yourself for even giving a fuck about what they think. Toxicity exists at every corner, if you think you can beat it by calling them names, think again. Let go of your need to be acknowledged, at the end of the day, we are only answerable to our own happiness and if you let other's acknowledgement determine your level of happiness, you're not that different from the low-self esteem girls on instagram comparing followers & likes to feel a little better about themselves.

Now, my friend would likely never see this blogpost (which is for the better i guess?), but I'd like this post to remain here. It probably can serve as a good reminder in the future should i encounter shit and start blaming everyone around me.

Won't be seeing my girlfriend till the weekends. 3 more days to go!!

Monday

Slow day at work today. I must say the past weekend felt oddly long for some reason, I guess i really had a good rest huh!

Supposed to go talk to my HR soon about me wanting to become perm or extend my contract here in IE, but somehow I don't really wanna do it today. Shaz is coming over to find me during lunchtime later too, guess today will pass a little faster eh?

Im so lucky to have found you. <3 p="">

Drinking Roulette

Shermane recently won this "Drinking Roulette Game" at her schools fair and gave it to me, been so excited to try it out but sadly its kinda hard to gather everyone for drinks nowadays hahaha. Lam suggested we try the roulette with jellybeans first on wednesday though but i dont know who to invite hahaha.

Only 45 mins more to my next smoke break fuck yes.

Jog with girlfriend on saturday?

Every week when Shermane comes over, I'd ask her if she was keen to jog. She would bring her running shoes over, but more often than not we just end up chilling at home the whole day hahaha!

Recently shermane has been pretty upset too cos of her broken laptop and sick body. Shes been waking up out of thr blue due to shortness of breath and all the doctor could advice her was that she should try sleeping on the side.. Im kinda worried for her. :( i wish there was sth more i could've done

Cant seem to upload any pics on blogger nowadays, so heres a video instead hahaha! 

I've always remembered Tokyo as Tokoyo

Is this like the mandela effect or something? Its so odd.. Too bad my blog doesnt have much traffic so i doubt anyone will let me know hahaha.

In other news, im down with some sort of ear infection since yesterday 5pm. I wonder if its my digging my ear too hard or is my body too heaty nowadays? Either way, i really wanna recover soon man. Falling sick feels pretty shitty. Gonna at least put it on record here that my ear has had an infection since 5/9/17 incase sth bad happens later on hahah

Kinda miss going overseas although its only been 3 days since batam haha. I need to earn more money!!

Just came back from Batam

Had a 6 hour sleep before heading fornwork today due to my insomnia. Im so glad work is slow-paced today although I have meeting later.

Today also happens to be mine and Shermane's 19th month together! I know its pretty lame to celebrate every month but it makes me happy that at least we date a little even till now. Time really flies huh! Hope september will be good to me though. Really wanna save even more money if i can.

Thanks for bearing with me for this long you silly thing!