It's mind over matter, it always has been

Finally there's only a mere 94 more days till I ord, yet it still feels kinda long though.. They were right when they say you learn stuff during your NS days though. Although I took a really different path from most servicemen I did definately learn a lot too being at the bottom of the food chain most of the time. Seriously, there's this midget fucktard that thinks he's like some kinda badass and treats other ppl like garbage and other condescending pricks. I even suspect sometimes my cigarettes get stolen behind my back hmm.. Better educate my child properly lest they end up like those fucktards.

This NS thing has definately been the worst one year and ten months of my life definately. Probably cos I've been living really comfortably before this huh? I've witnessed the ugly side of human nature and definately some good as well. They say you'll learn discipline when you're in NS, but I disagree. The kind of discipline they educate in NS is simply just obeying orders through and through and getting fucked if you don't. That's not what discipline is to me at all. To me, discipline is about being able to decipher what's right and doing it despite it being uncomfortable or tough. While it may differ from person to person what "the right thing to do" is. I'd like to believe that I've done right by myself. And blindly obeying nonsense just really doesn't suit me, so as long as my actions don't affect others negatively, I've definately not let myself down. And that to me, is discipline. To not just blindly obey rules but do things that might not benefit yourself just so others won't have to suffer.

Anyway I've been blabbering for long enough, really can't wait to ORD so that I can move on to more important things in life like studying, getting my drivers' license, going overseas to experience the world etc etc.

Just finished watching Howl's moving castle as well, Studio Ghibli's works are indeed amazing!