I saw an old man with his pants down on the park bench at 4am in the morning.

So recently I was helping my friend go around Singapore to catch Laprases on Pokemon Go for a small fee, and it was pretty easy money. I borrowed my girlfriend's dad's escooter and began roaming around the neighbourhood in hopes of catching my next "paycheck" using this website called sgpokemaps to locate the next pokemon.

And so, in the wee hours of the night, sgpokemaps decided to lead me to the bungalows near my place, it was an easy job, barely 10 minutes away from my house on an escooter, never did I expect to see something I have never encountered before in my 25 years of living in Chai Chee.

I rode my escooter down a dark alley next to a canel which would eventually lead to where that Lapras would be, it was fairly well lit, but the sound of millions of frogs croaking in the canal tunnels was creeping me out a little. It was so loud that you'd think you're near heavy machinery or something. And that was when I saw in the distance, an old man by the bench; someone whom I would've easily ignored him had he not chose to suddenly bend down and pull up his black fbt shorts.

What. The. Fuck.

I rode past him, chosing to ignore his pressence, sparing him of a world of awkwardness should I stop and confront him. What could I do even if I confront him though? Embarass him some more? Call the cops?

This balding, ordinary looking uncle created so many questions in my for the next one hour. What if I wasn't the one who walked past him but some lonely, scared girl instead? What the fuck was his doing pantsless in the middle of the night on a park bench? Isn't wanking more comfortable in your own goddamn bed? Was he a serial flasher? Should I have called the cops on him or something?

Well, it was indeed an interesting experience to say the least. The world is a huge place, maybe some people get off doing weird shit like that in the middle of the night just to feel that they have some kind of purposeful life or something who knows? I can only pray that that dude was not a serial flasher or something or I'd have missed my chance at behind a vigilante on a escooter haha.

I might be bidding adieu to unemployment soon. Hopefully I can bid adieu to my fat tummy as well haha

Pasta all day

Shermane and I cooked too much pasta today and I'm now stuck eating them at 3am; thank God it doesn't taste bad hahaha.

Hope I get some good news when the weekdays come! I've been stuck in a rut for awhile now but I really want some change right now.

Zeke's tarot card told me that I gotta wait a little while longer for the tnt job. But damn, it's been almost a goddamn month.

I thought 2017 would be a good year, but damn it's boring asf rn.

I can feel my fitness level dropping

Last year during Ippt, I was still able to get a pass with incentive. But I've really stopped exercising since then. I guess I didn't really grow fatter? But I can tell that if this keeps up, I probably am.

I should really get back to exercising soon if I wanna survive this year's Ippt. Urgh.

The buttons on my formal shirt feels like it's gonna pop out anytime soon. I kinda miss my old body.

I really wanna get employed soon so I can go on more overseas trips urgh.

Fat

Okay so I ordered mcdonalds again. Feeling kinda guilty but fuck it.

Let's just pray I get a job soon so I can finally stop exploiting my savings for fatty treats at 3am.

I miss going overseas again.

Probably too much "cringe" in one post

Chanced upon an image on Instagram that somehow reminded me of a cringey moment back when I was in army urgh. You'd think that when one gets older they'd be doing less cringworthy stuff huh? No, that cringey kid just grows older to become a larger cringey kid. And yet somehow I sometimes find myself judging my friends cringey actions online (ie, Making lame jokes/pseudo-deep quotes in an attempt to impress their online buddies). I guess I'm a hypocrite like that. I'm trying my best to be less cringey everyday though.

In a few hours time marks Shermane's final test for this semester, afterwards I guess it's time to take a breather together with her? Recently while applying for another job I had to show my employer my blog, and whoa, he really schooled me on how to write "properly". I guess I thought too highly of myself. Time to stay even more grounded now.

Am I really feeling so uncertain right now that I kinda miss the "simpler days" back in NS? Tf is wrong with me.

Tummy butterflies

After screwing up at the interview last Wednesday, I've been having butterflies in my stomach ever since; hoping day after day that they would call me back, and if they do, it is to inform me that I got the job.

Living in uncertainty is indeed a shitty feeling. And I know I don't have to subject myself to this kind of "torture" if I just have an open mind and seek other jobs. Maybe it's me being naive, thinking that if I approach something with sincerity, I would be reciprocated.

But the harsh truth is this. If you do not bring value to the company, or are seen as a liability, your concerns come second. After all, all this is transactional.

I guess at least during uni, there was a clear direction on what actions I have to take. Welcome to adulthood.