Simpler days

I sometimes find myself often saying "I kinda miss the simpler days."

Truly, as you get older you start to be more affirmed that the only "simple day" was yesterday.

When I was in primary school I missed the classes in kindergarten which were mainly made up of learning how to write alphabets and singing songs, going home with my parents, and of course my kindergarten friends which I can't remember any of their names anymore.

When I was in secondary school, I missed the simple days back in primary school where I could have fun all day and be the only "naughty kid" in class. Playing pokemon cards with my fellow primary school friends.

When I was in polytechnic, I missed the times where me and my classmates would annoy tf out of our teachers and stick together like family through thick and thin back in secondary school, the cohesiveness was real (I didn't miss the uniforms though); where it was cool to get punished for something you done.

And when i was in NS, i missed the simpler days in poly where you don't have to aear a uniform to school, and sometimes classes were only like 2 hours long for a day, i missed the freedom to do whatever i wanted whenever i wanted. While when i was in SAF i had to be told where and when to sleep. When to book in and when to leave.

In uni, i did not really miss NS per se, but i missed how "simple" and "brainless" life was, like i was able to just lie on my bed, watching shows out of boredom without any objective. But then again, i think NS really wasn't all that memorable.

Now I am working, and although i do miss the "unemployed" days where my greatest worry was either submission dates or what to do after school. My work is pretty chill though. But this is now real life, where i have to strive to do my best so i can suppprt my loved ones. The playing field has once again changed.

But i gotta say, working life isn't really all that bad since i get a lot of balance between work and play right now. I only with i had a higher income so i could give my sotong buddy here more friends though hahaha

Why does rick and morty only have two seasons so far? :(

When Shermane and I were watching Rick and Morty just yesterday, we had pretty low expectations, thinking it might be something like adventure time or something. (Which we thought was really brainless and tryhard.)

Turns out it was quite addictive! We watched through 8 episodes back to back. I wanted to watch more but sadly shermane had to go. :(

Im glad the "hype" for rick and morty was worth it though. Adventure time was seriously traumatising that we had to stop halfway through the season last year.

On the other hand, im kinda worried about what happens after my 1 year contract ends. Hopefully they will reconstract me but with higher pay. I kinda like it here haha.

I miss my girlfriend

And it has only been four days i think? Normally i realize i post sad shit or random rants here but today. I think its time to show appreciation hahaha :)

Sometimes when i have bad or boring days I'd think about Shermane and everything doesn't seem so bad. Being loved and knowing that someone cares for you is a good feeling! And I'm so glad that even after a year we are still as happy as we were. :) She makes me want to become a better version of myself. I wanna take care of her till we are old haha. This might prolly be a little cringey for some to read but whatever lel.

Cant wait to meet shermane and have even more cuddles on the weekends! :D

Going to meet Noel for some HK cafe soon. Im broke af omggg..

Today is shaz's birthday

But i don't really know what can i do to celebrate his birthday with him. I guess as you grow older, you prolly find less joy in the typical things you'd normally do when you're young, since they're pretty boring now lol.

I'm starting to feel a little hungry now. But i don't really wanna go eat yet. My parents are right that i am probably eating too heatily but i cannot help but wanna have some kinda burger today urghhh.. And i still owe myself 128 situps as of now. So fml.

Kinda wanna fuck it and just eat whatever the fuck i wanna and smoke whenever the hell i wanna. But its seriously so fucking hard to be disciplined. Why cant i get addicted to the healthier stuff?

I guess it's true what they say la, 学坏三天, 学好三年。

Human hippo keeps walking past me everyday

Do you ever get the vibe that you're being watched from behind? Maybe its my paranoia, but maybe its the loud human hippo that keeps giving me some stares from behind. Either way, i don't like it. Then there's this dude with some weird skin. Sometimes i think hes trying to peek at what im doing at my desk too.

But maybe I'm just thinking too much lolol. But i rly would prefer having more privacy around my workplace.

Haven't seen my grandma in awhile. Guess i gotta make time soon man.

The screaming old man

Opposite my house was a newly built old folks home, it looks pretty good on the outside, with greenery every level and pretty modernised architecture.

Sometimes at night when i can't fall asleep, i would hear an old man screaming some 2-syllable name again and again for almost an hour or more at times. It was almost routine. My dad and others who stay up late in my building are also very familiar with this daily event. Some would open their windows at 2am and shush really loudly in hopes that the old man would stop being so noisy as the rest of us are trying to sleep.

For me, im pretty much unaffected. Since im kind of a heavy sleeper and my door is fairly soundproof. But the days where i had insomnia in the past were when i would be "greeted" by the old man's screams for something, or someone.

I can't help but wonder why, why would someone so routinely pine for something in the middle of the night. Was it because he had constant pains and is in need or a nurse? Or is it because he misses someone badly? Whatever his reasons were, i feel more strongly encouraged to become someone who is capable. Because that screaming old man is definately not happy with where he is right now, and i don't want to become like that when my hair turns white.

Might be meeting the peeps tomorrow for dinner! 

I wish i could sell my fats

But food tastes so gooddd.. everyday i see myself turning more and more grotesque. Oh god why does unhealthy food taste so good huh?

I stayed up too late yesterday and now im going to fall into a coma on a friday night. Life's like that huh. Gotta do my 30 pushups and 30 situps tomorrow. I know its not much but its a start.

I'm still very much into tattoos.

The receptionists had pretty shitty attitude too

At 5pm today, I consulted this male bespectacled doctor at Central 24-hr clinic (bedok) about the swelling of my lymph node on the left and an ulcer on my frenulum, which happened just 20 minutes before I reached the clinic. When I begun explaining on how these came about, the doctor seemed to be in a rush to get straight to the examination. After the examination, i recounted my story on how my lymph node swelled and my frenulum instantly grew an ulcer. The doctor quickly dismissed this, claiming that these two "parts" are unrelated and likely have different causes. I told him that all these just happened less than half an hour ago and that it's true, he snorted and said the same thing again that they are different parts. I understand that i should trust his professional opinion, but i have no reason to lie to him about how my symptoms happened nor did I come to this clinic seeking for an MC either.

I understand that doctors do not have it easy and they probably face a ton of patients in a day, some with very similar medical issues. But to lose your emphathy to the extent of not trusting your patients recount on how these symptoms happen is pretty lamentable.

I don't mind the consultation costing twice as much, but at least take your patients seriously instead of trying to generalise every symptom, administering them the appropriate medicine, and then asking them to leave like we are some sort of customers lining up for a massage.

Just leaving this post here lest i die in the next few days. At least you guys will know which motherfucker misdiagnosed me

Kodaline is pretty good

Im going for my first music festival overseas this august! Been listening to some of their artists' songs and man. I rly think kodaline is probably the better one of them all :) Shermane will be coming over soon! I cant wait.

On a side note, i rly need to cut dowj on my sweet drinks. Im seriously turning into roadhog over here.

Hope all my uni friends get a job soon too, the economy is legit shit.

Still a little into tattoos

I find myself constantly looking af tattoo related stuff online even though i just had one done weeks ago. Maybe adult life is too boring. But somehow, i actually truly kinda like it :)

Shermane should be coming over in a few hours time, cant believe i fell asleep so early on a friday night yesterday hahaha! But its fine, at least my body clock has been reset to that of a normal human's.

A rough draft of what feroze did for me a few weeks back. The end result was stunning man.

Why is shaz taking so long to meet me for lunch?

Time seems to really fly when you're busy at work. I still cant really get used to waking up early for work at times though. Guess im really more cut out for shift work :)

Anyway life has been pretty good nowadays! Cant really complain. Except that i realize i have an issue with "letting go" of unresolved issues; whenever there is something that is bothering me, or something that i have on my agenda, i find it hard to relax until that issue itself is resolved. Which is really both a good and bad quality i suppose?

Cant wait for panpingo with da peeps tonight!