I like my curly hair

So glad to have my hair permed in taiwan man. It gets pretty boring having straight hair on head for the past 25 years. But whoa, time kinda flies eh? I'm already 25. This blog was prolly created when i was like 16?

I'm happy that there's a place for me to air out my thoughts though.

My face is honestly getting fatter sia fml

I think some people will always remain trashy af.

Not that its entirely a bad thing to be "trashy", but its a problem when you try to impose your lifestyle onto others, and those who follow are your friends and those who didn't comply "aren't there for you". But that's how everyone chooses their friends anyway right? So who am I to judge. Birds of a feather flock together.

Until the cat comes.

On a totally unrelated note, I'm definitely not spending my new years eve with another scumbag unrelated to the post above.

Hearthstone community is pretty helpful!

I've been browsing the hearthstone forums during my free time, and my impression before yesterday was that there were people full of complaints out there about tiniest stuff. That impression changed when I asked for advice on the game and was actually given a ton of good tips. I guess Blizzard's gaming community is in fact nowhere near as toxic as Dota huh? But that's just my personal opinion.

Still considering between getting my driver's license replaced today or just chilling in the office. I think I'll probably choose the latter since I'm pretty darn lazy.

Work computer having problems for the past 30 minutes

This is ridiculous. If my boss sees that Im not online she might think im late for work or something.

Suddenly had some flashbacks of my friends in bedok 85. Its interesting how everyone's lives have changed in the span of eight years (17-25). I mean of course its obvious that things will be different, but its interesting to behold.

Pretty glad that I'm detoxing myself of rotten people in my life, this might mean that my circle is smaller but at least its one that I feel comfortable being in.

This post is a little random, i know.

Never rely on others

Two years ago, i remember once asking my friend for advice on how to confess to a girl I like (The girl wasn't interested though). This bugger gave me a ton of theories and shit and even offered to confess via text on my behalf.

Things went south pretty fucking quickly as he soon typed in shit like "please give me a chance I'll make you happy." It was at that moment i realized that my dear friend had no idea on what he was doing but he had committed too much already to have it "not work" now as that would mean that his reputation as a "smooth talker/charming guy" would drop or something. Of course in the end, i did not get the girl. She probably thought i was some kind of freak as well thanks to the way my pal was texting her with my phone.

So all in all, there are some people who are all bark and no bite, and would gladly balloon themselves up a just to be liked a little more. Relying on yourself from the start would've likely been waaayyyyyyy better.

But personally, i too regret all the cringey things I've done in the past. Oh well..

Long journey ahead

It's been ages since I've travelled any further than town area. (Not counting overseas trips.)

About to make my way over to woodlands now to celebrate christmas with the pretty lady and her family. Nose is a little runny right now but im sure it'll be an awesome day today anyway!

Oh mah lawd i have so many graduation photos in my phone

May I'll get fitter in 2018

So im most likely gonna be doing 20 rts next year due to me being unable to clear my stuff this year. Which is fine I guess? I have been stuffing my face full of unhealthy food for a super long time now and its bound to happen. Maybe RT might not be such a bad thing after all man. After all, I'll be likely doing these with my friends so it'll be kinda fun hahaha!

Bojack horseman is pretty depressing

Mureum's death

After rereading hunter x hunter once more, i noticed a lot of things that I wasn't able to pick up the first time. The Chimera Ant arc is so splendidly well done i think I've ever seen any other manga just like it! This arc was able to turn a typical adventure comic into something that is deeply on a emotional and psychological level at the same time. I'm really impressed at how the author is able to allow me to empathize with even the villians and in the end, feel a little torn on who to root for.

Truly a goddamn manga masterpiece if only the author didn't go on so many hiatuses.

I feel like there's still a long way for me to go before i can call myself a full fledged adult. But oh well! Baby steps i suppose.

My opinion on hearthstone so far

I'v opened more than 70 packs of kobolds and catacombs packs now but I'm still lacking so many core cards. I guess this game really is pay to win? Or unless you're a super patient guy who doesn't mind grinding out quests for a whole year straight. Which us why I've been doing for two months now.

Tomorrow is finally friday man. And theres less than four hours till i finally knock off. I can do this!

Happy birthday mum i love you!

Lunch

After working for more than 9 months here, I've finally decided to join my colleagues for lunch at work. It's actually pretty fun! I kinda still wanna be a ghost at work but I think its good to socialise a little too at times i guess? 

Had a weird "nightmare" that my curly hair was slowly turning straight again. Oh how horrifying. Actually overslept cos of that goddamn dream too.

Tomorrow is my mum's birthday! Probably gonna treat her to a good meal or something huehue.

And thus begins another day

And thus begins a new day.
Another grind, regardless the pace.
What's my purpose here? Some say.
To achieve, to belong, or to just save face?
I look around and I see my peers, filled with an assortment of fears:
Will I die alone? Will I one day be rich?
Will I one day own a car or still be taking grabhitch?
Will I get off my ass today and start something new?
Or continue to feel alone, disgruntled, and blue?
Will I ever be the best at anything I do?
Do I simply exist to exist in a world that is subdue or be subdued?
Is my worldview skewed? Or are these nightmares actually a reality?
Nothing truly matters. Woe is me, life is a tragedy.
When confronted with such confessions, I tell them this:
It doesn't matter if nothing matters, it doesn't matter: your quarter-life crisis.
If you think your life doesn't have meaning, give it one.
If you are sick of bumming around, go get something done.
If you can't find anyone to love, then work on yourself.
Read books, get a job, go to the gym, become a bombshell.
And if those don't work, then try being kinder.
Go brighten lives up in a world full of eyeliners and cider.
Remember that if you died right now, the people around you might grieve.
Tomorrow comes, we'll still proceed with our daily routine. Stop being naive.
You don't matter, I don't matter, we don't matter. So what?
Go get something done, make your own meaning, show some gut.
We're all trapped in the rat race, whether you know it or not.
But that doesn't matter to me as well, what matters is that I fought.
I fight for things that I value and that gives meaning to my life.
At the end of the day its worth all the drudgery and strifes.
So while its okay to ponder about existential subjects.
Don't stop learning, loving, and moving; and you'll have my respect.

Reservist next June. Fuk.

What does my future hold?

I'm at this point in life where everything feels a little uncertain and there is some sort of urgency creeping up just around the corner. Maybe this slight stress is self-induced. But knowing how good I am at "letting loose", i guess this is a pretty good thing?

The taiwan trip made me learnt that my parents can get pretty annoying at times, i love them a lot but it kinda makes me think what kind of parent do I want to be in the future. I think I'll be the kind that lets my kid does what they want and make mistakes, and only rein them in when they are being an annoyance to me or the public. (Parents who let their kids be nuisances in public should really get slapped with a brick.). But who knows right? I doubt I'll become a parent anytime soon and I guess thats a good thing?

Updated my ig photo recently.

My girlfriend takes good photos

National Service can be a huge burden on Singaporean men to be honest. Its not enough that they took away two years of our lives, we still gotta book back in yearly for a week or more and also do some ippt even as we advance onto our next phase of life. It's a shame that it can't be avoided though since our country is small and yada yada. Oh well, just gotta suck it up and go through the damn motion i suppose.

If i get reemployed after March my probation period would likely clash with my reservist, leaving to a week's worth of lost income. Maggie's company hasn't gotten back to me as well although somehow, I'm not really worried. Weird..

Miss taiwan a little already hahah

Really hope to work for blizzard someday

But i doubt I'd have the talent though man. They probably hire only the most talented ones man. If i worked for blizzard, I'd be so happy to develop some overwatch lores with them. But ah, this will probably forever be only a dream.

Time for some overwatch with the pretty girlfriend!!

Minimal presence

One thing I like about my current job right now is how little impact I have on the company. No I'm serious, this isn't sarcasm or any of that sort!

Came back from a 4-day leave and was greeted with minimal workload, i feel pretty glad to have this slow-paced workload in all honesty. I do kinda miss the office though, although I'm sure most of the people here probably didn't even notice me gone, which is legitimately fine. :)

Kinda miss meeting these peeps man.

A very fufiling trip

Taiwan was super fun! Im blogging this in advance on the plane cos its too uncomfortable to sleep and there's no internet as well. But oh well, what can i expect from a budget airline right? I need to pee too but I don't wanna trouble the guy next to me who had to move out of his seat for Shermane to go to the washroom just now already.

Kinda looking forward to going back to work and playing hearthstone hahahha!! Its weird I know.

Shermane is prolly gonna have a ball of a time editing a taiwan video once she's home, so I guess I got that to look forward to? On the other hand, I'm not even done editing mine for her which has already taken almost a year. Its basically an abandoned project right now oh well hahaha.

Didn't get any gifts for my friends oh well.

Swollen lymph nodes again.

Hunter x hunter is pretty interesting although at times there can be too many different characters at once. Can't believe i actually went to reread an old classic man.

My throat is inflammed again and im suspecting that its due to me smoking or eating too much heaty food. I think its time to eat clean again soon man. For the sake of my health and my wallet. I fucking hate this. Why cant the human body just consume whatever the fuck it wants to consume?

The wait time yesterday at the clinic was fucking horrible as well. The doctors are nice but honestly, it took more than two fucking hours to get me to even consult with them and my throat was hurting the whole goddamn time. Then again, its not like its any better if you're at the hospital. The wait there used to take around 4 hours per visit and easily three times more expensive than your typical clinic. So i guess unless you're unconscious or something there is really no good place to get quick medical service.

Feel quite bad to be on MC when im flying off this weekend as well. But what choice do i have :(

I'm hungry but I can't find a tasty alternative to fast food

Seriously. The local food around here are so bloody fekkin expensive man. It almost feels like the only way to get value for dollar is to continue stuffing my face with the same shit over and over haha.

Maybe ill try the korean fries later on opppsite my office. I sounds pretty awesome.

Less than 4 days to go till Taiwan with this pretty thang!! 

Lazy

Recently I've been pretty lazy i gotta admit. I guess life is just a little too comfy and i nevet even realized it man. I am really thankful for everything I have though. Really.

Theres only 4.5 work week to go before I embark on my Taiwan trip. Its gonna be glorious!!

Still haven't had the time to get a paper wallet for Nicol yet. Oh well he's busy anws.

Why do fridays always feel so slow?

Im serious, why do fridays feel so slow? Its like every other day i breezed through work like its nothing but fridays just feels so goddamn dreadful. Weird. Maybe its because the weekends are just that close hmm?

Meeting Justin Jon Lydia and Shermane later for some minds cafe. It's less than 4 hours till i knock off but somehow it just feels super fekin boring man.

Can't wait to get to Taiwan man. I need a break.