Why do people not know how to get onto the objective in overwatch?

So I just fucked up my body clock majorly by sleeping at 10am yesterday.. now I'm wide awake at 6am and I'm not even frickin surprised. I think I'm falling sick soon tho :/

Really need to buck up on my uni studies soon man. It's the final bound and yet somehow I feel rly burned out before local lectures even start. And my teammates are a little clueless too.. Urgh, seriously I rly prefer working than this crap. Maybe I'll feel differently next time when I start work.

I can only hope my body clock can reset itself back to normal sleeping hours on Tuesday though, if not I'm royally fucked.

Although I'm always ranting on this blog the truth is I'm really blessed compared to many of my peers. Guess humans really are insatiable huh.

I must be content with what I have

When it comes to game of thrones I have to admit that I'm a laggard, being stuck at half of season 5 when season 6 recently ended. A pretty amazing show so far I must say, it leaves you with a lot of thoughts about how the situation in the show would change if only a certain character did ir did not do something. Like, when if Bran never saw Cersei and Kingslayer doing it?

I'm actually somehow more grateful of the place I live in now when I watch game of thrones, where the rich and the poor had such a huge margin that people are dying left right and center, no matter whether you're a high born or not. At least the standard of living in Singapore is pretty fine :)

On a side note, I really want more tattoos hahaha

Last week of visiting lectures is finally over, time for the real shit to begin. 

Weird rants about a weird memory

Sometimes on nights like this a memory from a distant past would pop into my head, and it got me thinking: What would I do if I met a person an old friend of mine (whom I've lost contact with) really hate?

Well that has actually happened when I was in polytechnic, I met this dude who seemed pretty nice, until I remembered that his name was a little familiar. I was sure that I have never met him before. After conversing for awhile, I finally figured out that this guy was someone my friend Benjamin accused of hitting on his girlfriend at work. Which came to me as a little bit if a shock as the person I met whom I've kinda hit it off with would actually be such a scumbag, knowingly hit on a man's girl even though he knew they were attached. Ben got really upset back then and I as his friend, got upset at this dude I never knew too.

What did I do? Nothing too extreme really, instead of socking him right there or berating him in public for his actions towards my friend, I asked him what actually happened then. It felt wrong to get mad at a stranger when you guys hit it off pretty well just moments ago. Turns out, it really was him! He explained that it was a misunderstanding and he was just making friendly conversation and my friend did not take it too kindly. Which kinda made sense because I know what sort of person Benjamin was like too.

At this point it wasn't really about if I should trust his words (bear in mind that me and Benjamin has lost contact for awhile), but whether would it be right if I took "revenge" on his behalf after so many years, since he and his girlfriend back then has already broke up as well and I know he would never be grateful for what I would have done as Ben and I never truly close although we hung out everyday. I decided to play it safe, excused myself and go talk to someone else. If I couldn't help Ben, the least I could do was to not form a bond with this guy.

Today when I look back, I feel like I have done the right thing. At the end of the day I feel that loyalty correlates strongly to the degree of friendship you and someone else has, if Ben was never going to be grateful fornwhat i did and we weren't close, i should not feel that bad. But i somehow cant help but ponder, if one day this happened again but to someone closer to me, would I do what I did back then?

Sorry for the long post, surprisingly me and Melvin still remain pretty close (at least that's what I think) despite knowing him about the same time I knew Ben. It's random but I'm glad to have friends that ive known for half my life and more :)

24

I'm 24 years old this year. Damn that's old. 

Everyday when we browse our social media, we come across countless stories of youths doing amazing stuff, and if you're like me, you'd take a step back and look at yourself and wonder why are they able to accomplish such feats while I'm here, unable to even wake up on time for school or work at times? Is it truly talent? Or hard work?

Well I know for sure that I am neither talented or hardworking, so maybe its my just desserts that I'm mediocre af. But what about the people I know who are actually striving to better themselves? Why do they appear so mediocre too? I wish I had an answer for that. Maybe it's just that their time hasn't come yet I suppose.

We live in a world where our culture is to share our accomplishments to our community as soon as we achieve something, big or small. It's pretty darn narcissistic in my opinion, and I blame social media for that. People are exposed to great things online, they witness amazing feats done by amazing invididuals, and some of us get inspired enough to do the same thing. And that's good, but I believe that our generation is too eager to receive recognition for their "above average" work. Like when you take a mediocre picture with a good camera and edit it to look "pleasing" you get so filled with pride that you decide to upload it online, throw in a buncha hashtags, and then start to low-key fish for compliments. I won't state examples here, but those who know what I'm saying knows what I'm saying.

Wow, my train of thought went a little off today huh. But I digress, perhaps it's better to attempt and "show off" your accomplishments than to stay a pleb like me who hasn't rly done anything significant with his life. Well, to each their own I suppose. At the end of the day, what matters is that we do what pleases us before its too late no?

Haven't seen Eve and Shi Li in awhile since we took this photo earlier this year. Hope they're doing fine :)

Final semester

School has started for two weeks now, but I'm still in such a holiday mood. This week I learn that some people are just better at some things while some are doomed to suck at it. Yeah I'm talking about myself. I might be better at some modules in my school, or talking, or gambling. But there are some talents that seem normal for people but are srsly hard for me. And it's better for me to stay that way than to impede the people around me in hopes to better that skill.

Gotta get my head in the game soon man. Quite angry at myself that I haven't been taking classes seriously enough. And the worst part is I've been told this semester's modules are all crazy hard.

Thanks for always sticking around even when I'm feeling like shit honey, sorry that I like to tease you so much too. It's fun though! I'll work harder so you won't be stuck with a useless bum for a husband in the future alright?

First week of skul

So school has officially reopened. I kinda miss my hols and working at tampines though.. Travelling to Dover is really a huge bitch I swear..

So recently I went to Malaysia for a half day trip with my uni friends, pretty fun I'd say, at one point the group split into two to head towards taman sentosa for dinner but we alighted at different spots and waited for each other for like an hour before we all finally gathered. Pretty relaxing trip if you ask me. But I was so sleepy throughout the entire "adventure".

Not really motivated for school yet. But I guess I'm kinda happy to see my friends again after a while? Sigh if only I could have like another week of holiday or something :/ Also, I've had a total of 4 macdonalds burger today. I srsly need to jog man maybe my colleagues will be more available next week?

Went to escape room again. Didnt solve the "puzzle" in time though. Man the people who made these are rly smart!

Hectic days ahead

July has proved to be a fairly arduous week from the get-go. Although reservist wasn't tough or anything, it robbed me of the one week break that I wanted pretty bad before school reopens. And liangyi just told me sth about there being projects due on the first week of some module. Like whattttt.. Tbh I kinda miss my part time job already. At least the work was acceptable and the office was really close to home :) Being in a faraway place from home just somehow makes everything such like way worse I guess?

Well whatever, guess I'll just have to push through this week first and take each coming week as it comes. Not that all these is going to kill me or anything. I guess the good part about going back into camp is to let you realize what it's like to take the everyday things around you for granted. I'm lucky enough to have loyal friends around me, and that's more than enough :)

Life consist of many chapters, some longer than others. But duration doesn't really matter as long as you make the most out of each one huh :)

Reservist day 1

Started my day with 2 hours sleep and a fuckup. Can't wait for this bloody week to be over so I can go back to normal life. On the plus side, my diarrhea is almost gone so that's nice :)

I miss Shermane already. I just want to quickly book out and resolve my fuckup. Maybe I'll feel better then. What a sucky day.

Ict really sucks. Thank god I have you.

Road hazard

Driving was legit scary today.. Guess I'm not ready for fast cars yet huh. Guess this upcoming week I'm either gonna get good or quit driving for good. Too much stress really haha. Reservist is coming up in 6 hours time! Can't wait for it to be fucking over so I can get on with my life.

Having diarrhea at the same time now. Guess July isn't so kind to me huh.

At least I got to see you today, happy 5th month baby! You never fail to make my bad days better :)

Another chapter

So my part time job is finally over. Feels kinda good to have the choice to wake up at whatever time I choose. June has been kinda fun I guess? Made a few new friends and now it's time for reservice. Urgh. July is gonna be super busy :/

My bed feels weird to sleep on tonight now that Shermane has gone home hahaha. Guess I gotta make myself even sleepier!

Thanks for sticking around love! I look like shit in this photo but it's okay cos you look great! :)