I know I've changed a lot since 2012. But are these good changes?

I feel like I've became more of a coward than before. Fuck.

I need to get stronger in the shortest time possible. Fuck this shit. I need to really gain at least my confidence to speak the fuck up.

It's so fucking frustrating to see your friends in distress yet you don't really know what you can say or do to comfort them. Not that I'd rather they not confide their shit to me though but I just wish I could be more useful to them..

What does "being there for a friend" truly mean? Should you be there even if you're useless to their situation? I don't get it..

Its only 180 days more but why do I feel as if this week's gonna be long as fuck?