Why?

Hahaha...

I'm in an eccentric mood today.

Why? When I try to hard to confort someone fromt he bottom of my heart, not to get into their good books or whatever but just try to make them feel better, they doubt my feelings? Am i really such an ass in your eyes? Why do you view me like that? What have I dont wrong to you? Why is it so hard for me to always start in a new enviroment? Why why why?

Can you please at least try to trust me? I swear I am not a bad person. I have a foul mouth. And I say unkind things. But I am a good person. I really really am. Can you not place your judgement on me so quickly please? What have I done wrong? Why do you dislike me so? I am also a fellow human in need of support.

Oh, and happy birthday to Charmaine!! =)
~237

This is just some random picture from the future where I was at zouk in 2014! Anyway I guess as you age it gets harder and harder to trust a fellow human being as we would all tend to attempt to decipher their intentions be it a kind gesture or a certain comment. It's really sad really. I wonder if humans have always been like this or did something change along the way :/ (ADP 4/6/2014)

Studying

EDITED: I only studied for 30 mins today. Not including my 4 hours of tuition..

I shall study for 12 hours. That's my study hours i owe...

GOD PLEASE GIMME GIMME GIMME THE WILLPOWER LA!!!

~237

Despite not studying thst much back then I guess things did turn out for the better as k managed to get into Temasek Polytechnic? Not really looking forward to studying after I ORD though I would much rather find a job with a good boss by pulling some strings with my dad instead but I doubt he'll want me to start working with just a measly diploma,  ah well! I'll just try to enjoy the free time I have left before I finally step into true adulthood! Can't wait for my stupid rear gate duties to be done so I can like go and get some food from the canteen! (ADP, 220514)

Stronger

I want to get stronger.

Yes I do.

I want to get stronger in every aspect. I want to get more knowledgeble, I want to emphatise with people more. I want to become stronger in every every aspect you can ever think of. =)

I want to be stronger so that I can protect my friends, my families and my beloved. I am not lying. Something has happened today that has made me really make up my mind. I want to become stronger. So I can solve problems before it even begins. I can cheer up a person even when all hope seems lost. I want people to be without worries when they are with me. Or even better still, when they know that they have a friend like me. I want to become stronger. I really do.

Thanks to Jordan Tan for all those lame magician tricks weeks ago. You have done a great deed to me unknowingly. Thank you Jordan hiadi!! You rock! =))
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It'd been six years since this post and I'd like to believe that I have indeed matured a fair amount since then! The strange thing about being stronger sometimes though is that you realize that the people around you can become your "weaknesses", like if you trust them with a task and it wasn't done well you'll get handicapped one way or another or if they don't know the gravity of a situation and just babble their mouths away you'd get fucked too. It's harder than I thought to cheer someone up as even if I do succeed, it'll probably be temporarily and not actually solving their issues. Can't really remember what tricks Jordan showed me back then but I think it's pretty lame? Ah, memories do fade as you age eh? (ADP, 220514)

1st step

I managed to compile my physics notes from the TYS into a notebook from chapter 1 to 9 (skipped chapter 8 cos i think its no longer in the syllabus.)

Today I'm gonna post about something that will improve my image. =)

I've said this a couple O times, but I never knew where to start from. Now I've finally decided. Hopefully this time it'll last.

I wanna be more gentlemanly. And the first step I'm gonna take is to stop cursing vulgarities. I'll stop scolding any of those at all. Wish me luck on my 1st step to gentlemanhood.
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Today was fun, I plucked off a few strands of Muzakir's leg hairs after he kicked my chair a couple O times along with Haidar LOL!! He was struggling like a mad ass after plucking off a few strands. Waaah I was laughing like crazy can? Zi tao Miss Faisah ask me shut up I still ignore her cos it was seriously too damn funny. She's a good teacher and can take insults. Like how I called her mole face today after she called me pimple face... -.-

Today I did some stupid stuff in class again. I tucked in my shirt until damn high then walked like some bigshot towards Ben's table to help him dispose of an ant cos he was afraid of it. Then I walked back to my seat like a hero. Aiyaa Its hard to describe in words la. If you were there you would be laughing like mad de la.. hard to describe in words... hard to describe in words..

Went to Techview to eat with Nicol, Ben, TianLoke, Leslie, Melvin, Alicia, Bernice and James. Some small girl winked at TianLoke today. She's kinda cute man. Keep on laughing. Sec 1 nia. TIANLOKE CHIONG AH!!!! We now call that girl Winky LOL!

I cant get enough of having fun with all those people in my class LOL. Seriously life's been really really good. If only O levels werent so close I definately would want to fool arond a little more. Darnit.. I'm seriously gonna miss them like hell. I dont mind not being 16 if only I could just spend one more, just one more year with these people. Ironic huh, cos when I first started school I really really wished it would end soon cos I didnt have any friends back then. Sec 4 life is the best time of my life in my four years of education. =))

Good times never last... Shit man. God please stop letting me feel so tired all the time in class.

Oh, for me, shit doesn't count as a vulgarity, doesnt matter what you think. =)

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Hahaa guess the whole "gentlemanly outlook" thing still needs a lot of improvement after all these years. I'm still cursing nowadays, not intentionally though! I remember the day I made this post though! It was indeed a fun day! God I miss Muzakir.. The Winky girl later came to be known as Jasmine and I think Nicol is friends with her now? Really miss my secondary school days with 4A :(But at least I know when I become old one day I'd still look back at these silly times and laugh to myself. Life is beautiful! (14/05/14)

Early

I'm home early today too..

Going to have a little nap later and get my ass to chemistry tuition tonight..

Hais..

Today has been really fun. 1 hour recess, 1.5 hours of free period. Truth or dare... blah blah blah. And slacking at english lessons. Mrs Yap is a really good teacher. =))

Sounds to mundane? Well, thats cos I'm too lazy to state down everything here. After school, skipped chemistry remedial cos I was too sleepy, went to eat with Les, Alicia and Val and then went home. =) Here I am now.

Few more days to O levels... Someone I thought who only know how to KaoPeiKaoBu suddenly talk sense to me!? Wow! (You know who you are... =D)

Hope that happy things will happen after the Os as well! =))

~237

Post from the future: Hi, future ADP here. So I just got done with my final prowl of my guard duty on 14 May 2014. Not really worn out but just suddenly had the feels to post something. On my way back from my prowling route I noticed the cornwire(sp?) Surrounding the vehicle shack near our company line and it can't help but bring back the dreadful memories I had when I was doing 4ntm with those first year commanders. Ah young dun ping, in the future you'll come across a certain psycho that goes by the name of Sergeant Aaron, he will make your life hell and indirectly cause you and your future girlfriend to break up. Grit your teeth and hang in there though! Life doesn't end there things do get better! Of course sometimes you do miss her a little but you know it's over and things will never be the same. Its really sad really. Life during secondary school days seem so carefree now. Anyway treasure what you have and never forget the lessons you've learnt during your hard times. Life is indeed a roller coaster ride! 

Break Fast

I broke my com fast after 3 days.. Why? Cos I felt like it. I feel that I'm "fasting" without a reason. And that wont help. This idea is pretty stupid to me anyway now that I think about it.. Like SofiaHear said. Fasting should be done on the neccessities in life. Like food. Computer is not a neccesity.

God Damn It My Spelling Sucks..

Nevermind.. I shall not elaborate. People might this that was an excuse. Know what? Think what you damn like. I dont really care. Say it in my face when I'm in a bad mood and I'll kan you so much till you wish you never knew me.

I realised after joining CHC i've changed alot. I call myself a "lawless" person. But now when I compare it to me back then. This is nothing. I'm now so damn guai can? Hais.. I have some talents that cannot be used anymore cos it'll be seen as a bad thing. Darnit.. this isnt fair.. Why did god gimme such a talent in the first place? Maybe it was Satan who gave me the talent. Nonetheless. Its mine now. =))

These week had been fun. Loved it. Cant remember all those good stuff that happened but it has really been fun. Hope the fun continues. I'm off to take a break today. Maybe i'll continue studying on monday. And I'll do a little of studying on thursday and Friday as well.

Going to watch movie with Mel, Lovell and Yingchuan later on.

I feel so chained by principles now..

An uber random post
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I remember in the near future from this post I actually went on an actual food fast for Sofia cos their parents were being real cunts. Can't blame them from trying to protect their daughter from a "bad person" like me huh.. Ah well. Screw whoever ordered hired those cleaners to come clean the building at such a stupid timing. It's fucking noisy over here and I can't sleep nor watch shows cos I can't hear their dialogue despite putting on a earpiece. Cranky as fuck now. Fuck army. (7/5/14)

Colours

Melvin added colours to my mundane everyday schoollife today.

GO GO MELVIN LEONG!!! YOU GOT BALLS! I SUPPORT YOU!!!

Lol shall not elaborate since its not nice to make the other party lao kui online no matter how much i dislike him..

Today I had my retest in english. Mrs Yap is a good person. I thought I would get 0 cos I didnt go for my english retest. Thanks Mrs Yap. =))

I owe someone four ice creams... -.-
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Ohh I remember what happened!  Melvin bitchslapped this guy called Ian Lim which I really hated back then for insulting his mother, you go Mel! Sadly Ian didn't retaliate if not I'd had a chance to jump in and get a piece of the action. Ah well good times good times. Hes about to ORD in two weeks! Proud of my Leong Leong! Can't remember who I owed 4 ice creams to though, Ahwell!  (7/5/14, ADP)