What the shit..

My phone that JunLe lent me de suddenly cannot charge.. =.=

What the teet..

God god god please please please make this phone be able to be charged!!! XD!!! GOD!!!

Tomorrow's my Poa paper.. Monday's my Social Studies paper. Later still got Poa tuition.. WISH ME LUCK PEOPLE!!

Hi, future ADP speaking. So recently I've been drinking almost every book out. Looking back at this post really brings me back to the younger days where everything was so simple and alcohol-free. I'm not an alcoholic though it's just that alcohol makes hanging out more fun at times. I still remember the phone that JunLe lent me back then had only 3 songs in them and I just kept playing them again and again till I knew all their lyrics XD. I guess in the end the phone was able to be charged uh can't remember how I managed to get it to work. I didn't do too week for poa on my O's though. But hey! At least I managed to get a place in TP so that aint so bad right? (ADP, 4/8/14)

Quiz

1)Whats your full name?
Ang Dun Ping

2)Do you like your first name?
Whatever. Cant be bothered.

3)How long have you liked the person you currently like?
I dont feel like putting it out here cos there'll be kaypohs everywhere.

4)Have you kissed anyone in the last 48 hours?
Shit. I wish I had.

5)Did you cry today?
No. I wish I could.

6)What are you doing this morning at 8am?
Sleeping.

7)What are you doing an hour ago?
I forgot. I think I was on the com.

8)What are you currently doing?
Blogging.

9)Who last texted you a msg?
This weird person called bebe.

10)Have to told anybody that you love them today?
Yeah!

11)Do you miss anyone now?
Yes, but she doesnt wanna be named.

12)Any plans for tomorrow?
My O levels. And I'm so damn unprepared.

13)What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
Her.

14)Is there anyone you want to be with now?
Yeah. I wanna be with that person everyday!

15)Have you kissed anyone who's name starts with C ?
Cyil? NAH JOKING! nope!

16)Name someone who make you smiles today, how?
None yet. Or maybe I cant remember.

17)Name a friend who's name starts with 'Z'
Zhi Jian

18)Which of your friend stays closest to you?
Nicol "turtlemonkey" Ong Ding Jun

19)Do you prefer to call or to text?
Call.

20)Was yesterday better than today?
I wonder..

21)Can you live a day without tv and your phone?
I can always use the internet. =)

22)Are you mad about anything now?
Yes. You could tell huh?

23)Do you ever think that relationships are really worth it?
Yeah I guess so?

24)Last person you visited in a hospital?
I cant frickin remember. I hate hospitals.

25)When is your last and second last hug?
Nicol ong, Sean Lee I think?

26)What does the last text msg in your inbox says?
"Cannot la.. If you want me to talk to you it'll be at night already. sorry. I not zuiying luh.. I also dont want to quarrel.."

27)How do you feel about your life now?
It's fine. It will be better after Os.

28)Do you hate anyone?
Yes. Two person. Same family. =D

29)Last person you called?
Erm.. I think it was SeYen, which was like yesterday?

30)Who usually sent you the most texts in a mth?
Someone who doesnt wanna be named.

31)Is your room messy now?
I only have half a room. And its okay. Not that messy bah?

32)Who will be mad if your room is messy?
Mother.

33)Your shortest relationship?
Shut up.

34)Who do you look like?
I dont know. Who do you want me to look like?

35)Tag 10 people to do this survey!
JunLe
Hyder
ANYONE
ANYONE
ANYONE
ANYONE
ANYONE
ANYONE
ANYONE
ANYONE

ADP from the future here, anyway here's a picture of what Nicol will look like in 2014. I still hate hospitals till this day cos it's like a cesspool of unhappiness and diseases. The nurses at cgh are pretty nice though! I really respect nurses cos they probably have to take shit 24/7 and not go apeshit on grouchy patients or their superiors. Can't rmb why I hugged Sean Lee though I remember not being on good terms with him ever since I entered BNSS hmm.. (ADP, 4/8/14)

Miss

Suddenly, out of the blue..

I miss calling that auntie and zhen zhen cooked food stall "si lang kia" I guess I wont be calling her that or seeing her for a long long time..

I miss the lazarnia (Is that how you spell it?) At my primary school stall..

I miss Muffin, Don and Francis..

I miss talking to Haidar!!

I miss ChengLong whom I have not seen for 2 years.

I think I'll definately miss Miss Faisah calling us "Ben dan zhu la!"


Thats all for now. I miss cocking and shitting with Haidar the most!! =(( Aww.. after Os damn hard to keep contact liao cos we have our own friends outside.. Ehh Haidar, call me hor. I lost ur number cos my phone went to fix!

I want to faster go finish watching that "Never Back Down" la!! Ben!!

~237

This is a picture taken in the early 2014 when I went to Yi Ling's salon and had my hair snipped by her. She's a really good friend I made back in secondary school but I think we only got closer after I graduated? Sigh.. Reading this post really triggered some really fond memories I had back in my sec 3 and 4 days. Although I guess I still miss those days i'm sure the feelings aren't as strong as what I've felt back then when I've posted this? I guess it's a sign that i'm getting old huh.. Oh and Yiling is pregnant now! Somehow I have a feeling it's gonna be a girl! (ADP, 30th July) 

Extended for 3 days

My fast will end at 10 dec 2008

Yesterday was uber fun. But I cant be bothered to explain. =)
~237

This is a picture of Valerie in the year 2014. I'm sure I've mentioned her a few times back in my earlier posts but yeah. This is how she looks like now. Haven't really seen her since her birthday celebration though! She's a good person and a great pal! Anws I guess it's important to archive your thoughts yknow? Like as I read this post I can't seem to really remember what was so "uber fun" back then hmm.. I can't even remember if I did succeed in finishing my fast. Anws those times archive time behind me! I wonder if someone will actually go ahead and read my blog posts when I pass away one day 😅 (ADP, 30th July 2014)

6 to 6.

I'm going on a 50days 6 to 6 fast. The reason is private.

My fast will end at 7 december.

God please gimme the strength to overcome this!!! =DD I cant do this on my own anymore!
~237

A note from the future: Yikes, don't you just hate it when cuticles happen? Anws since this post has been made like years ago I shall now reveal the reason I fasted k? Back then I had a girlfriend called Sofia who happens to have two really protective parents and while I was not a bad kid, they did not really liked the notion of their daughter having a boyfriend at the young age of 15, or was it 16? I can't remember. Anyway I was still really into City Harvests teaching back then and I thought that fasting would actually please god and miracles can happen if I just put enough effort into fasting. Now that I'm much older I don't really know anymore. It's nt that I've lost my faith in god but I guess I've just learnt to not heed heed the words of men blindly? Yknow like we are all humans after all so who really knows what god's intentions are yeah? Anyway Sofia and I broke up after 11 months and I hear she has a really great boyfriend now and is already in a university so it's all good I guess? :) (ADP, 30th July 2014)

Botaks

BEFORE...
AFTER...

ALL DEPRESSED NOW...

I HATE MY COM!!

She says that TianLoke looks the most pai.. LOL!! My mother, when she looked at my Class photo, also ask me if Tianloke is the kind that bully people not? LOL

Ehh people who dont know him.. Hes that guy at the centre of the bottom wearing school uniform.. He got pai meh?

She says Leslie also look paikia!! I kind of agree LOL! Melvin looks guaikia! Lovell and me looks guailan! (All she say one.. -.-)

"Then Benji leh?" I asked
"Okok only la.. got see him before. Look quiet." -She

Hoho!!! Dont worry dont worry! 2 months later I hair grow back lo! Not intending to keep fringe though..

(I did something to this post! :P)
~237

I think the "I did something to this post" was probably edited in by Sofia back then yknow? Well that day was one of the most eventful days I've ever had back when I was 15 going 16. What I've forgotten to post here is that Melvin looked really fierce when he took off his spects cos he had really big eyes. Looking at old posts like these stirs back memories you know? It brings me back to the simpler days where there was really nothing much to worry about and everyone that mattered was there for one another. This kind of camaraderie is hard to find as you age yknow? Even today there are many things that I don't see eye to eye to with even Melvin and Nicol. I guess I still have lots of room for improvement huh! It's never too late to try to become a better person! I really hope one day I'll get to hang out with these old peeps again just like the old days! I mean like with everyone and not just Melvin or nicol. (30th July 2014)

To my Horny Friend

This post today is dedicated to my Good good hiadi Horny asshole bastardy Porno fan JIN SONG!

I dont know his surname haha..

JinSong has done alot alot for me! Everytime I forgot about him, he remembers me! Hahaha!! Song ah! Even though we not very close hor. Everytime everytime you remember me one leh. Steady brothers la. Even though i always say brother brother but really. You're the one that has always remembered me. Even though sometimes I dont let you come my house to look at your favourite stuff cos my dad is at home. You still treat me so well. Song ah. You're super good la!

Song ah. You promised me de hor. After Os going to pei me come CHC bio chiobus.. Although now if i bio someone might get jealous and angry. But I'll pei you de! Cos you're my hiadi! Hoho!! We're going to have so much fun!

Thanks for wishing me good luck for tomorrow as well! Song ah! I love you la~


~~10.51~~
HAhaha! There are a few friends I want to dedicate this post to as well!

These ladies are... *Drum roll*

Valerie Ngor Jia Ying! Chan Yin Yin! And Yvonne's Momma!

Amongst these three ladies, only Chan Yin Yin read my blog bah? Nevermind! I just post out!

Thanks to Valerie for helping me ask her friends!!! Thank you thank you thank you!!! You rock la!!! And oh oh oh! Also thanks alot alot for offering to pei me go east point fix phone.. Although donno if tomorrow we will even go anot.. >.< Thanks alot for being my friend as well!! =)) You're the third person to involve helping my find the curve ruler! Have to apologise to you as well.. Sorry little miss seet~ Thank you for not eating curry puff until you're 18 anymore. =)) They're expensive anyways. =D

Chan Yin Yin! You rock too! Despite being awoken from my call and going back to sleep. You went to go find your curve ruler for me~~ Hohoho~ Thank you YinYin!!! Thank you thank you thank you!! Really appreciate your effort! You rock la YinYin!!! Thanks for accompanying me talk on the phone last time when I was bored as well.. Nowadays cannot so much le cos got someone else le~ But THANKS THANKS THANKS ALOT ALOT!!! =))

AUNTIE!!! Thanks alot for being my good good neighbour! This auntie here owns la! Just now went up to borrow ruler. She at first dont have one. Then I say "Nevermind la. I go ask others lo!" She's the third person I asked but she ended up the first one to gimme an answer! =)) I thought after "driving" me away hou she jiu wont care about me le. Who knew? She come down to my house knock knock knock! Then gimme ruler! =)) Hoho!! this auntie here OWNS!!! Thanky ou Yvonne's mum!! Thank you for being my neightbour since I was born!! hohoho~

~237

This is how future ADP looks like in the early months of 2014, pretty retarded really. Ahh I was do naive and kind back then.. Anyway I think Jin Song's surname is Low? Haven't spoken to him in years I wonder if he has ORDed already since its been so long. Hopefully I'll chance into him one day on the streets? I'm sure he remembers me even till now if we met! Jin Song never managed to join me for CHC but I guess that doesn't matter anymore? Have met up with Valerie recently for her 22nd birthday! haven't seen here chomp down on a curry puff for eons though! Me and YinYin aren't on good terms anymore though because I find her really cock and vice versa but I don't really wanna talk about upsetting stuffs today! Just want to stay out of her path :/ I haven't actually spoke to my neighbour nor seen her in weeks though but that's probably because I'm in camp and whatnot. Hope she and her family are in good health though! I guess sometimes when I reread these blog posts I remember how blessed I truly am, to always have people by my side who cares for me yknow? Time to show some appreciation but at the same time not to step too much into their personal space. Recently I have been turned a little retarded cos of Vivienne but maybe one day I will become cool again and learn to appreciate everything around me once more! Push forth ADP! The end of your national service is within sight!  (Future Dun, 100714, 0105am)

Confidence

I dont know why.

I feel really confident about the future. This confidence didnt come from any source or evidence. It just came out of nowhere. This confidence is overwhelmingly strong.

I have confidence that we will all get better. I have confidence that they will be together no matter what happens. I have confidence. I have confidence.

Cheer up people! Even with the odds stacked against you. You must believe! Believe!!!

I thank god for this random burst of confidence he instilled in me.. I'm off to study at 930.

~237

Confidence is good I guess? This was probably a post about my ex or something Hmm.. I guess I've come a long way since then! Recently met a friend whom is reslly cool and laughs as my jokes n stuff. I like her! Her name is Viv and I doubt she'd ever read this post unless she's stalking or sth but whatever! :) Can't wait to ORD man.. (090614, ADP)

Manure

The Messenger has arrived!!!

Break the code! Enter his realm! It all rests on you now. Yes YOU! If you dont understand what does this mean then it's not you. And stop trying to guess. =)

~237

It's 2014 now and I have no idea what this means, probably something retarded. (ADP, 090614)

Happy days

Yesterday and Today are happy days~

Yesterday went out with Alicia, Val, Yiling, Bernice, Seyen, Nicol, JunLe, Lovell, Leslie, Melvin, Ben, and James

Took alot alot alot of pics! =))

Alot of stuff la. Very fun. Lazy to type. =))

~~

Today is happy! Cos I someone gave me something! Sorry though.. I let it slip.. Please forgive me~

Hey hey hey its a beautiful day~ Stop thinking so much and let the amazing ADP solve your problems with a touch of his magic wand! =))

~237

I have no recollection of this day at all. If only I was more specific back then sigh..  I guess everyday is a beautiful back then when you don't have any responsibilities n baggages. Growing up sarks (ADP 040614)

Eating Seaweeds

I am eating seaweeds right now. Not in school today cos it was marking day. Actually supposed to go back to school for MAths and Humanities de.. but was too bum ass lazy.. XDD

So bad lor me.. I'm gonna copy some maths notes for myself later! My walls are filled with chemical formulas now lor. No seriously. My WALLS. my HOUSE WALLS. Are filled with chemical formulas about "Compounds" at the switch for the lights at my living room, "Testing for gases" and "Testing for gases" and "testing for anion" at my corridoor. And "Testing for Cations" at my study hall.

Hmm... O levels are coming in 7 frickin days. My chemical formulas for chemistry are all ready! Physics practical I pray will be a breeze!!! Gonna bring Uno and poker to school on the day of the practical!! =))

Wahaha life is so great to me! Although there are some stuff that aint that cool happening arond my life. I decided to not bother about those stuff and focus ont he good ones! I'm such an ass sometimes..

Wohoo!!! Tomorrow is my Graduation Ceremony!!! Gonna wear nice nice nice!!!

Wahahaha!!

Its so hard to not blog about you.

~237

I've nvr rly liked cakes. If i has a birthday party I would prefer pizza anyday! Anyway I guess I was really ingenious back then huh! Thank god in 2014 my walls have been repainted already! I think the graduation ceremony turned out to be kinda boring and afterwards we went to Bugis to hang out! That part was really fun though! Sigh I miss secondary school. So naive n bubbly unlike now..

Leave Out All The Rest

Leave Out All The Rest

By: Linkin Park

~~~

I dreamed I was missing
And you were so scared
But no one would listen
Cos no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am i leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me I want you to know

CHORUS:
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Dont resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Dont be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made.
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me I want you to know

(Chorus)

Forgetting
All the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending
Someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

Has recently been listening to this song once again after I got my new phone. Really makes you ponder how people would think of you once you've passed on you know? I guess it's a reminder for each and every one of us to do good while we still have the chance to? After all. Why waste time being a dick to others when you only have limited time here? (ADP, 4/6/14)

Why?

Hahaha...

I'm in an eccentric mood today.

Why? When I try to hard to confort someone fromt he bottom of my heart, not to get into their good books or whatever but just try to make them feel better, they doubt my feelings? Am i really such an ass in your eyes? Why do you view me like that? What have I dont wrong to you? Why is it so hard for me to always start in a new enviroment? Why why why?

Can you please at least try to trust me? I swear I am not a bad person. I have a foul mouth. And I say unkind things. But I am a good person. I really really am. Can you not place your judgement on me so quickly please? What have I done wrong? Why do you dislike me so? I am also a fellow human in need of support.

Oh, and happy birthday to Charmaine!! =)
~237

This is just some random picture from the future where I was at zouk in 2014! Anyway I guess as you age it gets harder and harder to trust a fellow human being as we would all tend to attempt to decipher their intentions be it a kind gesture or a certain comment. It's really sad really. I wonder if humans have always been like this or did something change along the way :/ (ADP 4/6/2014)

Studying

EDITED: I only studied for 30 mins today. Not including my 4 hours of tuition..

I shall study for 12 hours. That's my study hours i owe...

GOD PLEASE GIMME GIMME GIMME THE WILLPOWER LA!!!

~237

Despite not studying thst much back then I guess things did turn out for the better as k managed to get into Temasek Polytechnic? Not really looking forward to studying after I ORD though I would much rather find a job with a good boss by pulling some strings with my dad instead but I doubt he'll want me to start working with just a measly diploma,  ah well! I'll just try to enjoy the free time I have left before I finally step into true adulthood! Can't wait for my stupid rear gate duties to be done so I can like go and get some food from the canteen! (ADP, 220514)