I still need a job..

Life's great! =D

Hey Cyril! Saw your blog. Funny how why you dont contact me or JunLe anymore the moment we left church, the same went for YingChuan huh? *Being random*

Hmm.. State the facts, tell me what have I done wrong then? =) Not trying to pick a quarrel with you here or anything. Just wanna know exactly what do you feel about that incident last time, actually, tell you the truth, we dont talk to each other anymore.(Marilyn). If you didnt say anything about the whole incident, everything would have been all over already.. Now what I wanna know is you say that both sides are in the wrong, tell me what did I do wrong then?

Ohwells, still consider you as a friend! =DD Please dont feel that I'm like trying to quarrel with you or anything, just wanna know why do you feel that way. =/ Ced still asks me to come over to his house someday.. Hmm.. I'll do it when I'm free ba.

~237

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In the end Cyril and I went our separate ways. I still believe 6 years later that I did nothing wrong back then though? I've always been the kind of people that feels that just because a majority of people disagrees with me it doesn't mean that I've did something wrong. Not trying to sound like a rebel or what, but back then all i did was to fall in love with a fellow church mate and suddenly it seemed like I'm some kinda arsonist/murderer or something. And when people try to defame you, the only thing a 16 year old could do is to attempt to retort back no? Sigh.. Stupid strifes. So happy to be away from there though best decision ever! I wonder how Ced is doing Hmm.. (3/9/14)

the blood

The blood of hypocricy runs through you.

Arrogant, insecure.

You dont decide for christ.

~237

Aha sometimes idk if I'm stubborn or what. It's been 6 years since this post and even till today when I read this I totally agree with my past self yknow? I remember the people in my cellgroup being really preachy n shit but are really rotten inside at the same time.. Which is rly stupid to me I guess? Why so much politics when there's nth much to gain? Silly people. Glad I'm out of there. People who justify their actions under the name of god seriously disgusts me. (3/9/14)

Liar

Hoho, So I'm lying now?

Wow, amazing..

And you know what? Your post doesnt seem like a respond to mine, it seems almost like a post to show to everyone else that you're misunderstood and whatever shit.. What the eff la hypocrite..

Ya seriously Marilyn, in the beginning, none of you had any rights to approve or disapprove. =) You treat her as your friend? Dont bullshit me la. if you treat her as your friend you wouldnt give her blackface when you knew we were together. Like JunLe said, a friend must be supporting. Even if you aint, you can always shut the fuck up, Why open your blabbermouth and then make everyone's life worse? Is that the christain way seriously?

I'm so effing sick and tired of you christains seriously.. I got no reason to lie in the first place. I'm so sick and tired of you guys crying in the pressence of lord and then doing all this kind of fucked-up stuff and then finding 101 reasons to cover up your ass and continue being a goody-two-shoes.. I seriously seriously pity Cecilia.. Shes a great leader. And Marilyn, you dare you tell me say you NEVER talk bad about your very own friend? I shall not name her but you know who, you even added in your own comments. You dare to admit you never say anything before? You sure not? Are christains supposed to be like that? Talk behind back jiu can liao, then now come lie to cover your ass.

People can let you down, but god will never let you down.
Then again, God works through people.

AhWhyTheFuckDidIBotherInTheFirstPlaceToReturnToChurch?
~237

Aha I totally forgot about Marilyn until I read this post. But ah, the past is the past no? As I get older, i start seeing more fucktards just like her who would not only speak ill of others but also lie. I guess it's a norm? Sigh, some fucker is playing music at 4 fucking am in my bunk now.So distracting. I'm curious to know how is Marilyn is doing now though, has she ever regretted being such a dick back then? Or is she too self-delusional to actually do any reflection? (3/9/14)

What the fuck?

At first, i thought he doesnt deserve to be with you.
His attitude, behavior is just disgusting.
But now, since is your choice, i have nothing to say.
Just disappointed, but you dont really care anyway.

Life is really full of decisions.
You need to choose and decide fast.
But you dont really know whats right for you.
However, i think, everything has already been planned.

-From Marilyn's blog.

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Eh Cheebye la hor! Fuck off la seriously, this thing fromt he beginning you got not rights to be a part of it la. You dare tell me this post not fucking about me ah? Pcb. My attitude bad your fucking business ah? Nabeh its because of people like you that make me to leave church lor. Disgusting like fuck.. dont come act one nice kid la. Now I break with her liao you want to chup in what shit. We break liao. Fucking happy now? Cb from the beginning you got no say in our stuff lor. Who gives a rats ass about whether you think shes the right choice or not? You leh? You think you're the right choice for Ian ah? Go lor! See if anyone want you first anot then come fucking talk la please. Fucking pcb la. You happy now ah? You shiok now? My attitude disgusting? got as disgusting as yours not? Whatever I do I dare to say in front of that person's face, you leh? Huh? You happy now not? Seriously speaking, Chirstain do until like that.. Baptise le got fuck use? I got ever badmouth you anot? I only call you monkey and then tease you about Ian only wad, I got apologise leh, you leh? Fucking hypocrite.. I dont know why the fuck christains are like that. Serious, one by one all fucking hypocrites. This from the beginning was two of our's stuff. You had no right to come in and give comments, you want also give to your own stead, but then, anyone want you meh? Fucking hypocrite..

Does she need you? A person less mature than her to tell her what is right or wrong for her? I dont need to tell you what made her like me. You cant see it. You dont have to see it. Because its our taiji from the first place. You just have to go mind your own Ian can liao. Provided he even want you anot la hor?

CMI la please.. Prove me wrong if you can. Then I lanlan lor?
~237

A note from the future: Aha what an angry post.. I remember back then she did say some kinda stupid stuff to Sofia that I couldn't divulge on the post cos it not it would kinda impair sofa's integrity on this whole thing hmm.. It's funny how humans work though, how they like to put others down just so they can see themselves on some sort of pedestal.. Ah well, the past is the past ya? (3/9/14)

Somehow..

I feel that I have forgiven this cheerful girl.. Even though she kinda "betrayed" me. I dont know why.. I got no obligations to do this..

Its okay la, I can live with being misunderstood, its been like this for lots of time le. Its fine. I forgive you Charmaine Theng Yong Ling. =) Sincerely. I swear. I'm sorry for ruining your cheerful-ness. What I want to tell you is, you sincerely heard wrongly. I really didnt ask you that. Stay cheerful and siao in the cellgroup okay? You're their entertainer! =))

Why the hell am I being so nice when she might still regard me as a hypocrite?
~237

A note from the future: Years have passed since this post and I've not seen this lady after leaving CHC. But if I were to describe my impression of her now, I'd say she was pretty darn judgemental back then. She wasn't entirely wrong though but I felt that she's always had this need to vent her frustrations by judging someone else before she even gets the full story. I guess I was the perfect medium for her back then to do just that huh. Hope she's doing better now :/ Like my friend Vivienne told me the other day, it's only human to err. (ADP, 29th July 2014)

Today rocks!!

TODAY ROcks!!!

Imma go earn more money!!! ALOT ALOT ALOT!!!

Just you wait JunLe and Cecilia!! I'll pay you back!

A man keeps his words. =)

~237

And I did keep my words in the end and returned every dime and penny to the both of them :) Sighh.. Although the ADP in the future doesn't owe anyone money anymore, he's not that well to do either.. Fuck. And to think 6 years have passed and I'm still the poor bloke I once was.. Fuck it. Ord is coming. Time to really get out there and kick some ass! (2/9/14)

Hello

Hi.. I have golden hair! Today can be said the second day I have it ba? Haha.. hair so short still go dye.. So many people tell me its not that nice. But I dont care! I like it can le hoho~

Really hope I can go ton at Lovell's house.. Too bad I cant though.. hais..

Tomorrow going gym at JunLe's house wor! =DD

I look so happy now. I guess my brain is so fried that I cant seem to mix emotions well anymore. Even Val says that I wasnt acting like the ADP she knows.. =( Its not that I dont treasure it. Its just.. Happy or sad, we move on. =) Why not live happily and not let your mood affect others as well? =DD I'm a reasonable and thinking person! =)

Before I "knew" you, I never knew how to cry. It was hard, i had to force tears out and they wont last. I didnt know how to cry. I really didnt know. Thank you for bringing such a long-lost primitive action back into my instincts.. I really really thank you from the bottom of my heart, I feel like a human once more. A human capable of tearing.

没有做完的梦最痛.
~237

Aha oh god I was so cute back then! That was prolly my first heartbreak after I left my first ex for a short period of time before gg back together with her yknow? Good times really. As I grow older I start to feel like I know lesser, and my confidence isn't as high anymore I wonder if that's a good thing yknow? Humility vs Confidence and whatnot. Miss those macdonalds days back then with 4A really. Everyday was literally filled with fun n laughter. It's really something very meaningful for me because I realised that not many people have had as much fun as I did back in Os. But im sure they've compensated for it in another way or something I guess? After all, there's always a silver lining somewhere! (2/9/14)

Hate Wheel

I shall not fight back. Not anymore. Not because I'm afraid. But because quarrelling would not do me or anyone else any good. I shall not talk to you two anymore bah? Doesnt really matter. Havent been talking much anyways.

I shall not fight back. Because that is not God's way. Cyril told me that this is the "people test". Some cellgroup stuff ba.

I shall continue coming to chuch. I shall not care about people like you. I shall play the bad guy and whatever and take all the blame. I guess it doesnt matter, because god can see me. And if you think I'm a hypocrite, then so be it. I have never ever hated you. If I did I would not have tried to call you or anything. All I ever wanted was to try to be friendly. But I guess sometimes people just doubt every single move you do.

I have never pretended to be good friends with anyone. If I ever did, name them down and I'll seriously stop. Because I dont want to become a hypocrite. I dont want to become someone whom I hate so much. If I did anything wrong, please tell me so that I can improve.

I wont fight back anymore. I shall remove my tag.

~237

I did eventually leave the church though as things got from bad to worse afterwards. I guess it's not as much giving up than it is knowing when to let go when something isn't worth your time anymore. I mean life is short no? Kinda did let Cecilia down though.. On the plus side she still has my bicycle somewhere so.. I guess that kinda makes up for everything? I have quite a huge disdain for Shu Wen and Charmaine till this day. Well what can I say? I was a moron back then and ill be damn sure to educate my children to not be such a huge idiot like me back when I was 16. Never regretted a single day leaving CHC. Not yet at least :) (2/9/14)

Removed

I have decided to remove this post. As one person told me to do so.

It doesnt matter now if I'm misunderstood or not anymore. Even if the whole cellgroup doesnt believe me, as long as you believe me. I'm okay le. Really. Let them think what they want ba. Because I'm very sure I did not say anything like that.

~237

Future ADP here, so I'm back in camp after like a two weeks and three days break. And things are the same as usual I guess? Just hope my MO doesn't find anything to fuck me up with after he goes through my MCs. Anyway, as I read this post I realized that although being in CHC was sort of a bad memory for me, it did teach me some stuffs! Stuffs like how humans are too quick to judge, and even quicker to condemn the actions of someone else when they don't see eye to eye. How can I change that? As of now, I can't. But I guess what I can do is to make the conscious effort to not do things that I detest other people doing yknow? Hope that works out for me. (2/9/14)

7 to 7

I'm changing today's fast to 7 to 7.

Reason? Simple. I'm falling sick. And Yesterday I didnt even eat anything except for a cheese donut. -.-

I even lost count on how many more days do I need to fast, I only know that it ends on 10 dec 2008. Anyone wanna count for me? I think its 32 ba?

After every fast, I would chiong fast food. No wonder nowadays my throat feels like shit.. My temper is getting worse also.. Dont really care though, I'm not an unreasonable person. I get angry for reasons.

Going to work soon~ =)

~237

ADP from the future here, here's a picture of Vivienne, Cheryl, and yongjie taking a selfie with me while I'm dead drunk. And it's only the second time I've met them omg so embarassing.. Anws no comments on the fasting thing uh, i believed back then it was the right thing to do so yeah.. I dont even know what to feel about it now yknw i'm like completely.. Neutral? God I'm so not photogenic :( (2/9/14)

Parkour-est

I was watching this parkour video on youtube.

Then suddenly I asked myself, "What was the parkour-est thing I have ever done?"

Hmm.. I wonder if the teachers will see this. But the parkour-est thing I have ever done would definately be me climbing over the fence to enter/exit school evertime I'm late/feel like escaping.

I can still remember the first time I did it, it was with me and JunLe, we called it "Prison Break BNSS edition" LOL!!!

Escaped school after assembly that day to meet up with Lovell and YingChuan to go to e!hub to watch "Meet Dave" if you guys read my long long time ago post, yeah, that was the day I first did it.

Whoa.. Super cool man! I really felt like I was prison-breaking LOL!! JunLe was definately better than I was at that thing hehe..

After that incident, entering the school through that entrance was very normal for me. I still remember I tried to enter school by the other "Secret entrance", the "Ant Fence." Who knows that one haha? =))

Dont ever go there, Dont think its just a few dumb ants only and it wont kill. YOU'RE WRONG! Climbing the fence is much safer!! And less painful.

Heh.. Speaking of painful..

I can still remember the day Moggie got his "skullcrack". That was also the day we went botak cos of him, a little due to me. I think he still blames me for it.

Lovell, BenJi, Moggie, and Ba wanted to climb fence to escape school I think? So yeah.. We did, as JunLe wasnt around, I had the most experience and I climbed first, upon landing, I landed on a safe patch, beside the safe patch was a longkang which is not covered. I thought everyone would be able to see it.. -.-

So next went Moggie. He climbed, landed in the longkang and he got a "skullcrack".. Ouch.. -.- Bleeding like crazy, if you see YiLing's blog you can see his "skullcrack" being stiched up le. But it was fucking gross.. I thought he was going to die. Or at least scream in pain like those horror movies.. I guess in the end humans have higher threshold of pain than we think huh? Cos Leslie say it was numb. So I guess that must be it. Went to Nicol's house for awhile to see what to do with his "skullcrack" Nicol fainted while watching leslie's doctor stich the wound up.

Later on at the clinic, Mel and Lokie came. When we asked how they got out, they said they just walked out of the gate. WALKED! -.- They told the security guard they were O level students and they were home free.. WTF?

Stupid people.. Ohwell, I'm still botak now..

I wonder which idiot said it was a skullcrack?
~237

A note from the future: You know how she stories stick at the back of your head no matter how old you've aged? This story has definately gotta be one of them! Hahaha, thinking back that day was truly truly epic I tell you, and it was definately the "parkour-est" day ever! Look at how much everyone in this post has grown man! Alicia is now working full-time and has a loving bf, Leslie has ORD-ed and idk what he's doing? Lovell is back in school, and I still hang out with Nicol every once in a while! I'm glad I have this fond memories, they'll be good stories to tell my children one day. (2/9/14)

Hello Humans!!

Left with one paper left for the Os.. =)))

Nowadays super slack can?
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Today, I'm dedicating this post to two of my favourite hiadis of all time~ =))

LOVELL LIM AND GOH JUN LE!!!
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Both of them has been classmates with me for two years.. I knew JunLe when I was sec 1 though. But Lovell I didnt know him until I was sec 3 when he suddenly appeared in my class. Wonder why huh..

Hmm.. Lets begin ba!

~~[[LOVELL LIM DAO WEI]]~~
Ehh Hiadi!! Thanks alot on giving me all those advices and scolding me when I need to be scolded. Although sometimes you kaopei kaobu alot alot ALOT!! But you're still the best hiadi I can ever have! I treat you like my big bro man! Oh! and thanks for the Pendant! Wearing it now LOL!! See you in one hours time big bro!!! Oh! And good luck in whatever you do! Good luck in getting whatever you wish to get!! =))

~~[[Kenneth Goh Jun Le]]~~
Another kaopei kia.. Hais.. all my hiadis all super kaopei de la.. Ohwells. This guy is super good la! Generous but kaopei! But then again.. all my friends are kaopei one la.. So.. -.-

Thanks Le! For giving me the card and lending me so much money and even offering to cancel the debt! But dont worry! I may be poor but I will definately return what I owe!! =)) And I really wanna wanna specially thank you for the card incident man. Xin ku ni le!! =)) Hope you manage to get your 8 packs soon! =)) See you soon too! See you in one hour's time!! =DD

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Heh.. Recently also never post so much le laa.. Ohwells. Busy with life, busy slacking, busy pei-ing my loved-ones. =D

DADDY ROX!!
~237

Future ADP here,  yes this picture is not very flattering and that's why I chose to post it here before deleting it from my phone. I like to archive stuff yknow? I lost the Pendant Lovell gave me, it was some kinda cross or something? Met up with him a few weeks back. Sigh.. Sometimes there are some stuff I wanna divulge to him but I can't because it's not my position to. Just hope things will somehow work itself out. No one deserves to be kept in the dark like this.. I haven't met Jun Le in years! Really hope to see him soon though wonder what he'll be like now hmm.. I'll forever remember his generosity. Miss that sucka man I still remember him lending my this phone which only has 3 songs in it during my Os when my phone was broken. Maybe he'll come attend the sentosa outing that Nicol is planning! (2/9/14)

Hey

Anyone got any jobs to introduce? I need some money.

~237

Future ADP speaking here, currently suffering from a severe lack of sleep and yet i'm not sleepy at all, gotta wake up at 630am later on to do some marshaling, on the bright side, I guess there's only less than 18 weeks to go before I finally ord and get my life together. It's been years since this last post and i'm still lacking financially sigh.. I realized that I have a lot of shortcomings, and I really don't know what to do because is so hard to kick all these bad habits.. God help me. (7th August 2014)

I want to eat McDonalds $2 Breakfast..

Yesterday was uber tiring.. Fun-wise? Yeah it was kinda fun I guess? Wish I could go out more with those people.. =))

AFTER O LEVELS SURELY CAN!! =DD

Lets move on to the quiz..
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Copy and paste to your own journal, erase my answers, and add your own.
Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.
They have to be real places name and/or objects, but nothing made up.
Try to use different answers if the person you got this from has the same initial.
You can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.
Have fun with it!

MY NAME --- Ang Dun Ping
1. Four letter word ; Ants
2. Boy name ; Andy
3. Girl name ; Adeline
4. Occupation ; Asshole
5. Colour ; Apple-green
6. Something you wear ; A shirt
7. Beverage ; Apple Tea?
8. Food ; Apple
9. Place ; Aroma Therapy centre

10. Something found in bathroom ; A bar of soap
11. Reason for being late ; A woman was stalking me. I was so scared I went back home to sleep till she left.
12. Something you shout ; ALI BABA!!! (LOL)
13. Font ; ------- (lazy)
14. TV show ; Amazing Race
15. Song Title ; Amazing


Now pass this brain-cracking quiz to 10 people.
Any 10. =) I dont have that many people in my links ya know.. >.< (Hyder come come!! =D)

~[4:54]~
Now at Ben's house using com, no one wants to watch Ben's Scary Movie 4, I think I'll just stay here and wait for my movie to load ba.. hais.. Faster faster start cooking leh.. 1 more hour till break fast. =))

~237

A note from the future: Hi, this is future ADP speaking that that's you being drunk on your sofa in the year 2014. Not exactly glamorous I know haha if I could see my future self being drunk like this I'd be embarrassed too haha! I kinda liked doing quizzes back then huh! Thinking back an occupation as an asshole is pretty valid huh! Think about parking attendants for example. I remember the good ol days where the class of 4A would just go to Ben's house to chill for the weekend yknow? totally lost contact with him now although Lovell recently contacted me again so I guess that's good? Hopefully Nicol will be able to bring the entire clique together for the upcoming sentosa trip ba! :) (ADP, 5/8/14)